Locked.

Would it be okay if I wasn’t me?

Maybe, the odds wouldn’t be against me and I’d have things go more smoothly.

Do you think that maybe not being me would be good?

Not being headstrong and determined, despite the walls I keep hitting.

Is this situation beyond me? Does it not matter as much as I believe it should? Is this what they call toxic hero complex? Should I just tag out?

I don’t know how to just “drop” something that I care about when I believe it matters.

This is a question that I’ve waged through to make it as possible.

And here we are, having to halt and possibly drop because we don’t have the facility?

Who am I amidst all of this? I could lose for trying.